Heart Beats

The End of Pseudo-Love

2008-05-08T13:03:00.000-07:00

I'd fallen into pseudo-love a couple times,
so I thought this one might be the same.
But then this one seems different...
For now I've realized I have the real thing.

It's an irony actually...
They were near and yet they were false.
And now...
He is very far and yet he is so true.

I spent four years to figure out...
They were not the right person for me.
But this one...although it's not even a year,
I find him to be...different.

I must admit...
Sometimes the loneliness does struck me,
and I can do nothing...but...
remembering the wonderful moments I spent with him.

There are not too many memories with him yet,
but they're enough to keep me strong...
to remind me of who he is...
his gentleness and warmth.

I know he's always there for me...at a distance.

I'm so thankful to have someone like him.
There is no other who could fill his shoes.

These things I say
are from the bottom of my heart,
I want him to know
in my life, he is a BIG part.

I Miss You, Gorgie...

2007-11-06T14:13:00.000-08:00

I'll always remember the wonderful feeling
when you first come into my life...
for it fills me to this very day

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We may not be perfect,
we may not be be the same...
But I believe we will fit perfectly
'cos those differences will make us complete,
they will make us stronger.

We will make this work,
we will understand one another.
Don't give up on us,
as I won't give up on you,
I promise...

I know it's hard to be apart,
but you know I'll always be around.
I would never leave you,
especially when you're feeling down.

In this complex world,
it's nice to know that...
Love is so alive and well in our hearts.

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Just in case you've been wondering...

I miss you when I'm by myself
instead of where you are.

I miss you when you're in someplace else
and I've got thoughts to share.

I miss you when I'm on the couch
and sitting next to air.

I miss you when I need a hug
and you are not around.

I miss you when our busy schedules
keep us separated.

I miss you when you're nowhere near
and I'm, well, "in the mood"...

I miss you when I'm with a friend
and not with you instead.

I miss you when I'm studying
and you pop into my head.

I miss you when you're out of town
or someplace I can't be...

I miss you when you're everywhere
instead of here with me!!!

We'll Make It Through

2007-09-01T10:14:00.000-07:00

Whatever they say...I don't care
I'll do it my own way...with them I won't share

'Cos I'm madly in L.O.V.E with you

Stay strong,
I'll always be by your side.
We are not wrong,
only to you I can confide...

I'll always fight and defend
what we have...
'cos our love
is so pure, true and it will never end !!!

Whatever's meant to be, will work out perfectly.
Nothing's gonna change our destiny.

I would do anything,
to be your everything.
I would never let you down,
'cos I could never see you wearing a frown.

Only this I want... with you next to me,
returning love -- the love you've given me.

This Incredible Sense of Missing You

2007-08-20T11:15:00.000-07:00

Whether we're in each other's arms
or in each other's emails,
knowing that you're in my life
makes everything better.

You give me a wonderful feeling
of deep-down, all-over happiness
that keeps me going,
keeps me smiling inside
even when we're apart.

I picture you there
while I'm sitting here
trying to distract myself
from missing you.

It's not easy...
my thoughts always find a way
to come back to you.

As far as I'm concerned
this love is worth every moment
of waiting...
So keep that in mind.

I want you to know
that every day
I travel the endless stretch of time
till we can be together again,
and every night
I keep the light on in my heart -
the light of love just for you.

Someone's Waiting For You

2007-07-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

If I never knew you, I would never feel this love...
I would never know how precious life can be.

There's nothing like this feeling, when I look into your eyes.

I'm so grateful that I finally meet you...
Never knowing I could feel a love so strong and true.

And if I never held you, I would never have a clue...
Wondering you're the missing part of me.

Have I seen the truth when I looked into your eyes?

I hope our love will forever be beautiful,
somehow we'll make the whole world bright.
There's no moment I'll ever regret,
'cos I've found a very special guy who's very thoughtful.

Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
and you will see the light.
Have faith and your wishes will surely come true
for someone is waiting to be with you.

She is His

2007-06-22T13:08:00.000-07:00

Staring at a blank page,
she's thinking whether he still doubts her
Will he take her to the backstage
and convince her that they belong together?

However, he surely knows how to treat her right,
not just like another dime
She may be his priceless work of art
If they'll be together from time to time

He's so far..and yet he's so near

His smile never fails to brighten her day
Though she's far from the best...
with him, she'll always pray
that he'll never regret and protest

She realizes that he's not like another man
He won't toy with her and let her fall behind
for he's a true gentleman
What could make her be in his thoughtful mind?

If everything went wrong,
together they'd be strong
As long as it's ok,
with him she'll always stay

She's done a lot of foolish things...
like a little girl who lost her way

She's almost wasted half of her time
till she met him
The sweetest days she's found
only when she's with him

Is she too transparent?
Her feelings for him are so strong
that they're all too apparent
She's sure though...that her feelings are not wrong

He'll always be inside her heart...
because it's a place that'll forever be his alone

Kisahku...Kisah Kita...

2007-06-15T12:59:00.000-07:00

Terkadang kuterperangkap di masa lalu
Dalam perasaan yang telah kualami sekian lamanya
Dengan rutinitas yang kujalani dengannya di masa-masa itu
Dalam hati kumenangis, walau terlihat kutersenyum dihadapannya

Tidak dapat kuberpikir jernih
Tidak berani kuberdiri
Dan menerima kembali arti kasih
Terasa sepi ku seorang diri...

Kemudian kau datang,
Merubah semua menjadi seindah mimpi
Membantuku melewati cobaan yang menghadang
Bersamamu pasti akan kuhadapi

Jangan bangunkanku dari mimpi indah ini
Bila kau tak di sisiku,
Lebih baik terus kupejamkan mata ini
Tuk menikmati hangatnya kasihmu

Kusenang...kusedih...kau ada denganku
Berharap ini bukan panggung sandiwaramu
Perlihatkanlah belangmu...
Agar kutahu bagaimana cara membahagiakanmu

Sejauh ini bersamamu
Kau selalu menyenangkan,
Kau berikanku perhatianmu
Dalam setiap kesempatan

Kurasakan kehangatan dalam setiap kata-katamu
Kuharap kau takkan pernah berubah
Ingin kumengerti bisik hatimu
Agar dapat kutemani kau melangkah
Dan menjadikan ini kisah yang terindah

P.S. You've given me a deep sense of warmth and security. Thank you...

She Will Wait...and Understand...

2007-06-11T17:14:00.000-07:00

She can wait, she can sit
And wondering what kind of world
He's thinking about
She's trying to find the right words
To express what she feels deep inside her heart

She'll never be disappointed in him
For she's found the most perfect man in her very eyes
With her heart, she sees the best in him
The last one he may be, if his love for her never dies

She has her doubts on what will happen
But his gentle words soothed her fears
And made her feel like she's in heaven
Surely, God has answered her prayer and wiped her tears

She'll give her hand to him with all her heart
Hoping that she'll be able to shine for him,
Giving him a fresh start,
And assuring him that none of these is a dream

She's found someone older and wiser
To whom she can depend on when when she's lost
He's given her everyday life full of pleasure
Without any cost

How could she not love this human-formed angel?

A Dream of No More Aching and Breaking

2007-06-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

She hopes he will feel the same
For she will never push and rush him
She's never created any game
That will ever hurt him

She's not trying to make him feel uncomfortable
She never tries to make him feel anything but happy

If he could only understand
That he's brightened up her life
Though he's standing on a different land
He's made her feel alive

He's someone she can count on
When she needs a pair of helping hands
He's compassionate and loving
He always understands

Faith in him is all she has
And she wants to be the one
Who can always brighten up his days
Even if she couldn't brighten up her own

These things she says
Come straight from her heart
What she wants him to know is...
He may not be her first,
But will he be the last?

Will He Like the Girl He Sees?

2007-06-02T15:16:00.000-07:00

Will he like her when they meet?
Be the girl he's imagined her to be
He may know her a bit
But he has opened her heart and let her see

How wonderful falling in LOVE can be

All she ever wanted is to do it all for him
But, will she ever be enough for him?
Can she provide what he needs?
For he may not need her, that he already has all his wits

She needs someone who can feel what she feels
To be with her in both laughter and tears
She wants him to explore the outside world with her
Because she knows he'll be so good for her

Nothing else he has to do but be himself

As she'll always be on his side
And try to be his light
Please don't give up on her just yet
Hand in hand they will work it out

Her wish is for him to know
How much she enjoys simply talking to him
Hearing his sincere interest in what she's doing
And how she feels about life

She hopes he'll never drift away
And leave her behind
For she will wait for the day
When he'll realize there's no one else like her he can find

She'll gladly spend her entire life with him
And hope nothing will ever change him
Through the summer and the fall
They'll have each other, that'll be all

If she could wrap up these wonderful feelings
And give it to him
To show how grateful she is
Knowing someone who's warm just like him

He's given her everything she needs

Those Three Words

2007-05-13T13:17:00.000-07:00

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
To express what she feels

Deep down
She has always hoped
That he'll never frown
For he'll always be loved

Those three words
Do not have to be said
When they're not meant
What he really feels

Loyalty is more important
Than insincerely saying those words
For she doesn't need anything else
But his trust

Will It Last Forever?

2007-05-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

When she needed laugh
And being with a comforter
Or needed a shoulder to cry on
She hopes he will stand up tough
Sincerely to support her
As she will for him from this moment on

No need to flatter
Just be sincere
Things will be perfectly proper
And even more rosier

No harmless little white lie
And the potentially hurtful lie
Just be tactful and gentle
Because everything can be settled

No more he's changed, she's changed
And all the roundaboutness
Deal with the repercussions
And be proud of being honest

All she ever wanted
Is this love story to never end
No one should pretend
For he and she will be able to comprehend

YAY!!!...Happy Days

2007-05-02T20:05:00.000-07:00

One time, it was full of sorrow
The next thing she knew
She found a bright light
That blinded her sight

She had her setback
That made her stronger
Somehow she gets back on track
And feels all the pleasure

She'll be mighty fortunate to have
Someone like him
Someone who is loyal
Caring, loving, and true

She had past the shadow overhead
With clouds hanging above her bed
She'll meet him who means so much
And can soothe her with his touch

Friends Come...Friends Go

2007-04-27T22:58:00.000-07:00

Being alone in a new world
Never felt as lonely as those days
Everything seemed so awkward
Everyone kept their distances

As time went by
She had a circle of acquaintances
At one time, they became good friends
Good friends who finally say good-bye

One had gone to Japan
Another one will go to Pakistan
Unlike them, she'll stay where she is
To take on her responsibilities

She had her red-carpet experience
By spending time with one another
Happiness isn't something she's experienced
It's something she will always remember

P.S. I'm deeply honoured to be your friend

The Best Gift

2007-04-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

Being in love and be loved in return
Is what she has always wanted
Spending time with her companion
Apparently not everyone loves to be spoiled

Love is worth a little tears
And a million of smiles
But it will never cause hatred
No matter what had happened

Love may make she feels
As if she has found her fountain of youth
Love may hurt her to the core
And makes her feel helpless

Love does not own anyone
Love means sacrifice
For the happiness of your love ones
Though it means you are hurt inside

Being in love means
Be ready for the unexpected
Be thrilled with all the surprises
Because whatever happened, it's never bad

Sometimes you have to hit a brake
On a relationship
But no turn tail, run, and hide
From your previous relationship

She has done living in her own little world
She opens her eyes and realizes
Everything is not as bad as it seemed
Everything will be good in its own time

She finds her way
It's simple when it's all okay
Feeling lucky
Just to be who she is today

Come what may
She will have no say
Fears no more of the future
Courageously steps into the future

Many Thanks to You

2007-04-18T19:44:00.000-07:00

For those who have been supporting me
For those who have faith in me
For those who L.O.V.E me

I am a hunk of nothingness without you & Him
I am trying to give the best out of me
I truly am and I will never stop

Do not want to disappoint you & Him
Do not want to give up
Do not want to regret

Please...Stop Masquerading...

2007-04-18T19:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes...Love makes everyone acts like a fool
Agreeing to things that should have been rejected

Sometimes...Love makes everyone to be hopeful
Hearing promises that are rarely kept

Someone comes only when
Someone needs someone else's hand
If not, being out of someone's sight
Someone else will be out of someone's mind

Someone must stop pretending to be nice
Someone must not deceive someone else

Please...take off that mask

-_-"

A Tale of Two Cities -- Charles Dickens

2007-04-18T19:12:00.000-07:00

It was the best of times
It was the worst of times

It was the age of wisdom
It was the age of foolishness

It was the epoch of belief
It was the epoch of incredulity

It was the season of Light
It was the season of Darkness

It was the spring of hope
It was the winter of despair

We had everything before us
We had nothing before us

We were all going direct to Heaven
We were all going direct the other way

P.S. I blew up my best years in you

Even Now...

2007-04-18T19:08:00.000-07:00

Even now...
She still hurts
She still feels the pain
She cares about him
She was in L.O.V.E with him

Even now...
She imagines his presence
She hopes he'll realize her existence
She pretends to be strong
She prays for his happiness

Even now...
She remains silence
She refuses to go back to the past
She struggles to pass her past
She steps forward to her future

One's Mind

2007-04-18T19:01:00.000-07:00

Seeking for a better future and forgetting the past
One is forced to leave behind what one has already had
Not that one wants to let go one's happiness
But more on the aspect that it's for everyone's sake

One has given one's life for others
Unfortunately, no one realizes one's hard work
Not that one wants to complain
In fact, one just wants to be admitted one's existence

With closed eyes and one breath
One will always be there for those who need one's help